Why do i feel like my friends are leaving me day by day? Why do i feel like i'm actually not needed among my friends? Why do i feel like actually was being used by my friends all this while? When they have no money i'm always helping them, now when i need one of them none are free for me. =( Like seriously is it true what i feel? mom always says my friends are the bad kind of friend. True meh? haizzz like seriously i have nothing to say. I think none of them know what i feels. now i feel lonely. No boyfriend and No trusted friends. Too much la this world. Maybe i should step back awhile and see what's going on in this world of mine. These moment are really cruel. I feel like smoking. I think only nicotine helps me. =( I don't like my friend to know that i'm sad or feel lonely cause i don't wanna burden them. I think no one will understand me. I did cried. I did laugh. Cause i'm human too.... In my groups of friends i'm always the fattest. I always feel like i dun dress like them. I always feel that i dun belong to any of them. I always feel I have the worst fashion among them. I'm always w/o a bf. I'm always the decent type. WHAT HAPPEN NURULHUDA. THIS IS SO NOT ME. SERIOUSLY!
