yesterday 22/05/08
i seriously dun feel like going to school.
i wanted to take mc
however thinking about the presentation,
i cancelled it
today 23/05/08
i woke up at 5.20am and get ready for school
while getng ready... i dun feel like going to bring my TABBNER.
i msg fifa and said that i want to borrow hers after her lesson.
i jus brought pen and wallet with me.
otw to bustop near my house, i feel like something
is not right.
i feel like i have left something at home.
after searching for my ez-link n wallet,
i've left nothing.
met nabil and we bounce back from boon lay so
tat we cud get a sit and sleep otw to school.
however i couldn't slip.
i wake nabil up and asked for his PSP.
at cT hall, i receved call from mom
i culdn't hear clearly at first.
but then i heard
"NENEK MENINGGAL. CEPAT BALIK"
that means grandma passed away.
i didn't believe at first.
i put down the phone and look at nabil.
i was so damn shock.
i control my emotion. and try to not to breakdown in front of nabil.
HOWEVER i couldn't take it and cried when change train towards jurong.
all the way in the train.
i cried.
it was the first time i cried in the train. in fron of public.
i tried to control but i really can't.
when i reached eunos...
i quickly kiss on grandma's forehead.
it has been months since i las saw her.
i watch how the people shower her.
i help here and there.
crying is the only thing i did.
my aunt say...
the day b4 she passed away, she wanted to eat lauk asam batang keladi.
she cooked i herself and eat it all b4 she passed away.
she's gone at 4 am.
semoga tuhan mencucuri rahmat mu nenek.aku akan tetap syg kan mu walaupun byk yg terjadi.semoga arwah atok menantimu di pintu surga.aku doa kan yg terbaik utk mu.amin...
